Sunday, May 31, 2009 AT 7:57 PM
Stupid problems
Neither of them are making up. Looks like it's over. Gone already. Over some stupid stuff, haha..
I dreaded the prospect of losing friends. But it's just that... I can't turn back time. Too late, late.
Too late to make amendments. Too late to apologise. Too late to be what we were before this.
The meaning of friendship, too profound, mind-boggling and difficult to understand the meaning.
It's funny. Have I thought about those things? Of course not. Wasting time. I rather study.
So what if I think about them? Will my studies improve? No. I'm not like some smart people.
I need to study harder, I failed Geography and History. I don't pass with flying colour like you.
'While I'm complaining'? Haha, I wonder who's the one who does that. I wonder, I really do.
Okay, I may be complaining about that. But what others complain about is much, much worse.
I don't think it's us becoming different people. It's just that sometimes, we need to adapt.
Like sometimes, those so called 'friends' ignore me, I have you to go with me. Thanks alot. :D
But it's just that, sometimes, you go with the others too, then I sit there, don't know what to do.
I admit that sometimes I do that to you too, but you have more friends, like her. That friend.
She always is there for you. But I don't have friends like that, I don't. Only you. But yea, I know.
Sometimes you need help too, but I'm always too self-absorbed in my own world to care.
Too self-absorbed to care about others, to stop and think about others, cause I'm selfish. I am.
And... yea. You think too much. It's like... some 10 years before those kind of things happen.
Meanwhile... just enjoy life. You never know, we might just die before we carry those burdens.
I really need to say this, although it might hurt you. I admit. I don't think of those people, no.
But... I don't think anyone sits there the whole day thinking about those people. No one does.
Unless some volunteers who are too kind-hearted. There are very little people who does that.
Tomorrow... I need to find the courage to look into your eyes. Maybe not. Maybe yes, oh wells.
Anyway. I'm sneezing and coughing as I type this. I ate my medicine and slept, but no help.
I hope I will not sneeze tomorrow, or I can't go to school already. I miss school a whole lot.
Uh.. I really don't want to quit NCSO. But it's like, I bought a few assessments and tried to do it.
But.. yea, the results? Almost fail OR fail. So.. I think I'm destined to leave NCSO. I guess.
I'm like begging my mum to let me go for that course. But it's like, $5000 for one month lesson?
Yea, but it's $3000 for primary school children. It's not a fib, seriously. My cousin went for it.
Now, she's like ace-ing every subject. She used to fail every subject... Haha, I don't know.
But I am still considering whether I want to go. Haiz.... But I must pass Geography and History.
By the end of this year. If I don't, my mum will flip and make me quit NCSO, then burn my viola.
ButI will try rather than just give up now. I will forget all those friendship problems, for now.
I haven't finish my June holidays homework... but er... I finished one book review, that's all.
Today, I didn't do much homework. Since I am sick. But I practised my viola and piano, haha.
Yea, tomorrow, I will.... finish some homework, practise my viola, read another book, and slack.
That's all for now, I'm in a seriously moody mood. So.. I'm going to eat some dessert.. cake....?..
Haha, Umm... then later, eat medicine and sleep early. Really tired out today. Actually... drowsy.
Bye~~~ Today, I planned to post very little, but read about some stuff, so I ranted. Hah... bye..
Loves,
Vivianne
PS: Wong Yan Yi, you are freaking dead tomorrow, I swear.
I dreaded the prospect of losing friends. But it's just that... I can't turn back time. Too late, late.
Too late to make amendments. Too late to apologise. Too late to be what we were before this.
The meaning of friendship, too profound, mind-boggling and difficult to understand the meaning.
It's funny. Have I thought about those things? Of course not. Wasting time. I rather study.
So what if I think about them? Will my studies improve? No. I'm not like some smart people.
I need to study harder, I failed Geography and History. I don't pass with flying colour like you.
'While I'm complaining'? Haha, I wonder who's the one who does that. I wonder, I really do.
Okay, I may be complaining about that. But what others complain about is much, much worse.
I don't think it's us becoming different people. It's just that sometimes, we need to adapt.
Like sometimes, those so called 'friends' ignore me, I have you to go with me. Thanks alot. :D
But it's just that, sometimes, you go with the others too, then I sit there, don't know what to do.
I admit that sometimes I do that to you too, but you have more friends, like her. That friend.
She always is there for you. But I don't have friends like that, I don't. Only you. But yea, I know.
Sometimes you need help too, but I'm always too self-absorbed in my own world to care.
Too self-absorbed to care about others, to stop and think about others, cause I'm selfish. I am.
And... yea. You think too much. It's like... some 10 years before those kind of things happen.
Meanwhile... just enjoy life. You never know, we might just die before we carry those burdens.
I really need to say this, although it might hurt you. I admit. I don't think of those people, no.
But... I don't think anyone sits there the whole day thinking about those people. No one does.
Unless some volunteers who are too kind-hearted. There are very little people who does that.
Tomorrow... I need to find the courage to look into your eyes. Maybe not. Maybe yes, oh wells.
Anyway. I'm sneezing and coughing as I type this. I ate my medicine and slept, but no help.
I hope I will not sneeze tomorrow, or I can't go to school already. I miss school a whole lot.
Uh.. I really don't want to quit NCSO. But it's like, I bought a few assessments and tried to do it.
But.. yea, the results? Almost fail OR fail. So.. I think I'm destined to leave NCSO. I guess.
I'm like begging my mum to let me go for that course. But it's like, $5000 for one month lesson?
Yea, but it's $3000 for primary school children. It's not a fib, seriously. My cousin went for it.
Now, she's like ace-ing every subject. She used to fail every subject... Haha, I don't know.
But I am still considering whether I want to go. Haiz.... But I must pass Geography and History.
By the end of this year. If I don't, my mum will flip and make me quit NCSO, then burn my viola.
ButI will try rather than just give up now. I will forget all those friendship problems, for now.
I haven't finish my June holidays homework... but er... I finished one book review, that's all.
Today, I didn't do much homework. Since I am sick. But I practised my viola and piano, haha.
Yea, tomorrow, I will.... finish some homework, practise my viola, read another book, and slack.
That's all for now, I'm in a seriously moody mood. So.. I'm going to eat some dessert.. cake....?..
Haha, Umm... then later, eat medicine and sleep early. Really tired out today. Actually... drowsy.
Bye~~~ Today, I planned to post very little, but read about some stuff, so I ranted. Hah... bye..
Loves,
Vivianne
PS: Wong Yan Yi, you are freaking dead tomorrow, I swear.