Is this the end. Yes it is vivian. All I want is to put up a performance, enjoy myself, let people enjoy with me. Is it so hard? Is it really that hard for that dream to come true? I want that more than anything. I really do. Please, just let me do this.

And I must try. I will try. I will tell you how I feel. Cause you're too important to me. I can't stand to lose you. I'll never be the same again. I feel too deep, oh so deep. Like my friend says, I'm falling into a very deep well, a well so deep that I'll just keep on falling without stopping.

I guess that is true. I really like you alot. I think I love you. Why don't you just talk to me. I don't expect you to like me back, or accept me. Just don't ignore me, it hurts. It doesn't matter if I hurt because all that matters is you.