It's not! It's really isn't, it isn't fake, I really do like him, it's not infatuation. I was watching the show "命中注定 我爱你", the part where XinYi had to abort her child because of the incident. I started to cry, but it wasn't because of the show. It was because of someone else.

Why. I see you like once in so many fucking days, and then when I do get to see you, you just go away and start to chat with other people. You didn't even see me, did you? You walked towards me, my heart just start to beat faster, and I overreact. Panicking what to do.

But when you come, you just walk past as if I wasn't there, then you sit down and it's like, I'm transparent. You might think I should start talking to you but, I'm not that daring. When I don't see you, I'll be like "Where's my *ahem*... Hope he's okay..." But when I see you, I just somehow melt away.

You're like a drug to me, and each day I don't see you, that day is just terrible to the core. When I see you, and when you say a simple "hi" (which never happens) that day just brighten up though, my results sucks, teachers scold, parents nag, et cetra, I still feel happy because of you.

Each Friday sucks. I imagine 2 days without seeing you and I dread it. People speaks of Monday Blues, but on Mondays I'm ridiculously happy cause I can see you in school. And everyday after school, I'll stay back and try to find you, just to get a glimpse, even if it's only one second, even it's only the back view.

I know it's not your fault that I'm feeling this way, cause you don't even know that I like you, and you like this other girl too. You say you're very sociable? Why don't you talk to us then. You just everytime sit there and expect us to talk to you. Haiz...

Okay nevermind. I wish.. I can get to see you on Monday then.