I'm feeling neutral today. Neither happy nor sad. I guess I'm going to be emotionless from now on, until string resumes, until CT2 is over. When I came online... you weren't there. Where are you. I haven't see you for 3 days in a row, and I didn't talk to you since the last string farewell gathering. Not even SMS or MSN.

I'm not going to get distracted by bitach. Thank you Lippy, Rachel and Ning Zhen, thank you so much. Haha. I don't want to depend on that bitach anymore. If not later she say "I'm so nice to all of you, I don't expect anything in return, but is this how you treat me? Everytime you need help, I'm there for you, but when I need, you weren't." Is this called not expecting anything in return? Har, right.

So I'm not going to go to her for help anymore, since she whine like a baby that I don't care. I love all of my friends, all of you who have access to my blog. Thank you. I must study hard, show bitach that I can do better than her. Though it's impossible to outshine her, but, I must still work hard, to show myself, that I can do this.

I'm going to stay strong. I'm not going to cry over this. I won't waste my time and energy on bitach. I will try to stop thinking about him. I will stop yearning to see or talk to him. I must stop the temptation of hugging him whenever I see him. All this must stop. It is affecting me too much. It's hurting. I don't mind, but he will feel awkward. So I shall, stop.