So stressed out for tomorrow's mock piano exam. Doesn't help when that person is so cocky today. Doesn't help when I can't play Brevard Sketches. I suck at it. I can say bye bye to performing already. I'm not fit to be in NCSO, I can't even play the piece. Why must they choose such a difficult piece? Dance of Iscariot is so much easier and nicer. Haiz.

I want to seek for help. I want to consult my string seniors or friends. But now at this time, none of them are online. I want to ask for help, opinions, none are there. It's such a difficult piece. I should have join some lame infocomm or green club. It's easier right, and I won't drag everyone down the water. I suck at viola. Sorry seniors who spent time teaching me. I wasted all your efforts.

I was too full of myself to want to perform in the orchestra. I can't. Not now. Not even 4 years later. I'm just not good enough, and I never will be. Please, someone from string please come online. I need help. I can't do this at all. So fed up now. So irritated now. So annoyed now. So angry at myself. So pissed off at myself.