Tuesday, December 22, 2009 AT 9:44 PM
Peformance
So nervous. So scared. Tomorrow, and I still suck at the 2nd top page of Dance of Iscariot. Brevard is okay, though sometimes I screw up starting from bar 43, Frippery number 2, bar 36 to 39, bar 65 to 70, mostly mistakes there, bar 101 till the end, out of tune, pluck wrong strings sometimes. My finger is still red and sore now, hopefully they'll be fine by tomorrow morning.
Ignore the above, I'm just trying to calm myself down and lying yo myself that I can do it. Oh no I am screwed screwdly screwed. TT
Wonder how tomorrow will be, I don't want to screw this up, I've practiced, but I'm still nowhere that up to standard, I can just hope for the best. Found out that what NC Chorale is going to sing is very nice, jingle bell rock, so christmasy, ours is as per normal, only one new song to add in, which equals to 2 and the half songs.
Somehow got a feeling I'm so going to screw up every bloody thing, it'll be a letdown, though the thought of performing is oh-so-exciting, and meeting ChiLing after that for senior's X'mas presents, and I hope I won't be crying all the way to buy presents, oh no. I so want to do well tomorrow, I will wake up at 5+ and start practising again for awhile.
Omg later the neighbours knock on the door and throw eggs at me, lols, so noisy. Oh my fingers. My neck, lols. Shouldn't complain, people like Chiling, practise like siao per day just to get into the orchestra. I'm going to sleep early today. Surprising huh. at like 10pm. I want to do well tomorrow, I don't want to be a letdown and pull the whole orchestra down.
I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well! I want to do well! I will to do well! I can do well!
Ignore the above, I'm just trying to calm myself down and lying yo myself that I can do it. Oh no I am screwed screwdly screwed. TT