I wasted 3 hours today. I didn't treasure the time I had. That was why I cried. I just wasted 3 hours with my beloved seniors, I don't want them to leave. I cried with FengXia, Chiling and Joelyn, and the sweet mingming who tried to comfort us all. I was regretting why didn't I know, if I did, I'd hug tengda, jocelyn and jingru, and write all of them cards. I wasn't ready.

I cried so hard. I don't know why my heart ached so much, I thought I'll just be fine, cause after all, they aren't related to me by blood or anything, but I'm crying for them much more than I did to one of my relatives who died, and the seniors were just stepping down, not like anything really bad befell on them. So it was a very good question asked when tengda said, "why did all of you cry so much? Why do you miss us?"

Perhaps to them 1 year is not alot, but to us, they're like our seniors, brothers and sisters, who guide us along in the past 1 year we know them. FengXia and I was regretting, if only I had more time, just abit more, I'll make it worthwhile. And... thanks for tengda, jingru and mingming for comforting us today. ;]

It was as if my heart had broken more than it did on the day of public performance. Why am I so close to them? Maybe to them we're not but to me they are. When Jingru hugged us, I was like.. Why didn't I treasure the time we had? I'm going to miss them so much. But I'm also relieved that the string president would go and find mr tien to let sec 4s stay.

So paiseh, Mr wong caught us crying. Haiyuh. I hope and wish so badly, that when Tengda go and find Mr tien tomorrow, he'll let sec 4s stay. Just one more week. Give me time to write out those letters. It's gonna be a long when. I'll need so much writing pad, at least 2 pages per senior. I'll start writing them now. :D

Dear seniors! I may be cold to you all, don't smile or say hi to you when I see you all, but you MUST know I love you all alot! I just am not so expressive to seniors than I am to my friends! See, 2009 batch juniors, crying so hard for the seniors, but the 2010 batch one, heard from the band people that they're incorrigible, and I'm not going to defend my juniors either.

I surprised myself, how close I actually feel that I am to them. And poor chiling who didn't get to see her Baihe, and poor FengXia and poor me. And I'm very sorry to Joelyn whom cried after seeing me, FX and CL cry, even though Joelyn tried so hard to held back her tears. I tell you, not only 2A people are emotional, we are sentimental. :D

Thursday. This thursday. If the seniors come, I won't bloody care about Mr wong anymore. I want to play Brevard or Peasant with them, one last time before they go, cause I won't get that chance anymore. Please, give me more time, I need to be with them more. I don't want to let them go so quickly. Dear Jocelyn, please come for string, I need to pass you a letter too, if possible. (: