Thursday, July 29, 2010 AT 10:11 PM
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I cannot handle this. I think I pissed one of my favourite people off. And the person who always talked to me and cheered me up seems to dislike and ignore me. I'm at the rock bottom but those 2 are not there, not even a little bit. I'm going to stay away from the computer for the next few days. Goodbye world.
Maybe I should just completely randomly just jump out of the window and land or some bush or just die. Bleah.
Today had been suckish. Every farewell party is suckish for me. Never a nice experience. Farewell and party don't go well together. And going for string is just plain dreadful. Reading sad stories of authors is my only way of escaping reality for a moment. Sadistic, but whatever.
Maybe I should just completely randomly knock onto the wall and die. Bleah.
I want to feel something I have never felt before, am I that bad, why doesn't anyone be there, I want to be part of that something I don't know.