Don't push me away unless you really want me to leave for good ):

once I make up my mind to go I won't turn back..



Wasnt I suppose to be the girl and the childish one here.. Why does it become.. Like I'm the one apologizing all the time and being the one always making it up so that you will talk to me.. Weren't you suppose to put up with me and be the forgiving one? Why is it that I'm the one who tries so hard not to spoil this and make everything ok? I don't like this role reversal, I'm not one to be mature and rational, I may have all the bullshit for you to endure but it'd be worth it, I'll treat you right.. So why do you make me so afraid of spoiling what we have as friends? I'm like living in fear that one day it will all be over for us...



Why is everyone leaving including you? I want you to stay so bad.. But I'm tired of trying to keep you here with me.. I shan't talk go you anymore since you dont even bother replying me, what I do will be futile...



Please please please make it easier for me, I just wanna be there for you...